Mexico Medical Student |

It’s hard to come face-to-face with one’s limits, but one has to swallow that big-ass horse pill. I can only manage a low B on a biochemistry test, when, oh I don’t know…that was my f*cking major with who-knows-how-many undergrad and grad hours. I got probably 4 wrong just because I wasn’t careful and equally as many from my studying the wrong professor’s notes on vitamins. Yeah, when they put molecular dynamics and protein folding on the exam, I will make them weep…

Seriously, I don’t know what’s going on with me…I got all geared up after my last round of exams, ready to study and start kicking ass for the next round only to find myself barely having the energy and interest (which is more scary) to put real sweat and tears into studying. Coping with my ADD is nothing new, but I swear it’s getting a lot worse, like an inverse proportion of distractability to importance/urgency. My sleep is whacked, which it usually is, but especially so as of late. It’s hard to concentrate when you haven’t had good sleep, period.

But I’m not going to get down on myself because I am not super-student. I have a lot more going on in my life that has nothing to do with medical school, and it will always be that way. For me, I don’t think I would have balance in my life if I studied to the point where I got an A in everything or got a 98% on the USMLE Step 1. It does make me upset that so many of my fellow classmates are all about hoarding information rather than sharing it. I don’t feel I’m in competition with them, so I share with most people just about everything, whether it’s notes, a helpful website or just stuff that has nothing to do with class, like MP3 CDs I’ve made for friends or helping someone find a good restaurant. I’m not one of the “popular” people (which is not unexpected considering my #1 priority outside of studying is spending time w/Claudia), so I guess I miss a lot of crib notes passed around.

Don’t get me wrong, with tiny few exceptions, most everyone I’ve met is cool and don’t mean to “screw” anyone over. Some professors, on the other hand… LOL

Ok, that’s enough for today. I need to start getting to bed earlier, so off I go.