Pensively unpacking

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We finally got here! YAY! Actually, we got here earlier in the week, but the computer, etc. was not set up yet, so finally after a couple of days of unpacking–and yes, things like curtains, kitchen items (utensils, pots/pans, coffee maker), unpacking towels, etc. actually do take priority over computer room setup, alas–I finally feel like life is getting back on track again. I had a vacation from school and it definitely feels like it, but there was no vacation from family and life responsibilities. There never is, I suppose.

I usually enjoy unpacking and setting up anew in spite of my absolute hate for the moving process. Uprooting, and the packaging of your life into boxes, bags and what not, is traumatic while laying down new roots brings the feeling of a new beginning. This time is no exception, but so much has happened (part of that will be shared in the next few days when I have more time) in the last 6 months that makes this more than just a move across town. To say we left a cramped, shithole of an apartment is no overstatement. I don’t know much about feng shui, but the amount of space we have in our new place is so mentally freeing and gives such a sense of relaxation to me. Some people will see empty space and need to fill it; right now, space is a luxury in which we are basking. (We’ll fill it eventually I’m sure )

As I organize my stuff into my new space, I am thinking what changes I want to make in my life too. What mistakes did I make last semester academically that I want to change? Am I going to make the hard changes and sacrifices necessary to excel to that next level, not getting behind in any of my classes? Is it more of a hardship to be iron-disciplined about time management so that I don’t get too far behind or is it more stressful to let things get away from me because I wanted more time for personal things and then scramble? My tendency is to wait and work under time pressure, but often I wonder how much pressure is healthy, especially since this kind of studying has not had its match in my past.

I also think of the changes I need to make personally, such as continuing to get healthier, lose more weight, and making time for myself and Claudia (see above about time management). Perhaps being iron-willed about time management when dealing with school is what will allow me to relax when I want to knowing a job has been done, rather than space it out over a long time and always having something over my head. I also think that there will always be something over my head, and to stop trying to wipe the slate clean all the time–that the measure of success is not necessarily having to have done everything.

Anyway, I’m just rambling. Moving always makes me think about new beginnings, and I think that the previous big move to Mexico really was overshadowed by so many overwhelming things (dealing with a non-functional apartment, getting ready for school, learning a new country, etc.) that I really didn’t have time to think. I guess it’s a luxury, but I thought I’d write now that I had it.