Posts tagged: Blogs/Blogging

Testing Flickr from ecto

Went out to a park the other day to shoot some wildlife. Uploaded a pic to Flickr, and now I’m seeing how it embeds in the blog. Heeeeere goes:

Ducks

I could delete this if it works, but I should probably leave it up just ’cause. There aren’t any other pics in my photostream yet, but that will change soon.

Ok, onto the next post…

(Update: Ugh…how do I get the text NOT to float on the right? Small potatoes for now…how do I get the pic to specifically link to the “Large” version on Flickr? Perhaps that’s a blogging software limitation. I’ll try it by hand. And why am I typing “out loud” for testing purposes? Probably to show that even though I may not post every week day, I still think about it. ;) )

EM Blogger “Hate”: Nature or Nurture?

Protest FAIL

Sid Schwab posted an entry the other day about EM blogs (I’m including nurses in what I write here) and their penchant for not only being right-of-center politically, but “vitriolic.” I want to say off the bat that I’m not here to defend his remarks point-by-point, but what he said about his post not being directed at any one blogger in particular and specifically that it was written months ago is absolutely true. In fact, he shared the draft with me in November of last year. The draft then is very close to the post of the other day, down to the same witty ending. In that sense, what is written really is representative of how he feels, not some knee-jerk rant.

But why did he share the draft in the first place? Because I said that I was going to post about that very topic because I had come to many of the same conclusions independently. I’m unapologetically liberal on most issues, but I keep an open mind and try not to let the occasional offhand remark about “lefties” keep me away from an otherwise informative or entertaining blog. Unfortunately, there are some sites that I just can’t read because of in-your-face right-wing screed brought up with no provocation, or commentary that is so ill-informed, it begs the question if the poster has MPD to also be a healthcare provider with [assumedly] a necessary component of humility and compassion. When I took stock of the sites that fit that category as I was trimming my newsreader’s feeds, I came to an inescapable conclusion: almost all of them were EM blogs.

EM has been corrupted by being made into the PCP of the disenfranchised and uneducated, as well as the pressure valve for inpatient floor inefficiency as admitted patients crowd the ED, further straining things. I get it. I was a volunteer at Ben Taub Hospital in Houston for over a year, primarily acting as an unofficial Spanish translator. Ben Taub is a model of your classic, inner-city urban hospital. Analogies would be Parkland in Dallas or King in LA. Houston, being the 4th largest city in the US and given its demographic, the ER population was primarily Black and Latino, both seemingly unable to speak decent English. I’m not going to pretend that my experience means a damn by comparison, but I wanted to make clear that I’m not talking out of my ass here.

I give the benefit of the doubt to any blogger of any kind when ranting that this the blowing off of steam is not representative of the patient care, that the “dumbass welfare mother” did not get treated at 30% of the care as the “private insurance patient.” But when blowing off steam or generalizing various patient populations is a near-daily occurrence (so much so in one example of a nurse blogger that ™ed the phrase “Medicaid Mentality,” as if it took much mental muscle to come up with it), ultimately I see it as a sad state of the person that wrote it. Just as it’s the height of stupidity to tell a cop, “My tax dollars pay your salary…” it’s just as stupid and self-important to say, “My tax dollars paid for that Mexican’s CT scan.” You don’t make enough to make a difference in anybody’s hospital bill as you aren’t that important. Abuses will occur in any system, and to the best of the ability of those responsible, it should be reported and dealt with. But the cost of tracking down every thug who has some drug money stashed away who might just be on Medicaid is ridiculous (watch your tax dollars go away even faster with the new Medicaid Police Enforcement Unit!). The fact that they come into your ER wearing far more jewelry than you’ve deemed appropriate for your label of what their economic/Medicaid status should be is irrelevant at best, pompously arrogant at worst.

On the subject of labels, “liberal” is used as a mild pejorative by those on the right, with “pinko,” “tree hugger,” “moonbat,” “terrorist sympathizer,” and many other colorful words to use for stronger effect. What words are used to describe those on the right? “Conservative” is simply a proper term (except this administration is anything but; real conservatives despise the “neocons” just as much as we do). “Fascist,” perhaps, but there’s a lot in between. You see, therein lies a big difference: there isn’t nearly the same screedy list to choose from because collectively, we try not to be that way. Everyone is guilty of generalizing to a degree as a necessary evil, but profane name-calling and deriding those who are “too stupid to go to their PCP/OBGYN” is not a staple of most any medical blogs outside of the EM ones. For the blogs that are offenders here, the tone of “I’m better than you” (you = patient/family, boss, administration, co-workers) is unmistakeable.

There are very polarizing issues in health care, such as is healthcare seen fundamentally as a right or a privilege? How much should the economics of medicine be market based vs. government regulated? There are no easy answers to these questions, yet too many simply state their simplistic opinion and accept no other. I don’t care if someone’s on the wrong side on an issue from my POV, but a well-stated argument–however ill-informed I think it to be–deserves respect. Too many right-wing bloggers don’t even bother…not they they owe me or anyone else an explanation, but at the same time some of these are the same that jump on others’ sites sniping their tired rhetoric there as well.

When I saw the comments to Sid’s post both on his site and others, it struck me how some didn’t even read it properly; the answer to their question was right in front of them had they simply turned off their prepackaged assumptions. Worse still, some clearly read it by quoting and commenting and STILL overlooked the obvious. It occured to me at that point that Sid’s post acted sort of like a political Rorschach test–in reading it, one would see what one wants, perhaps a reflection of oneself.

Lastly, a modest request to the right-wing EM bloggers that can’t help but make commentary on sociopolitical issues of their less fortunate patients: when there is a positive story (and there are, don’t lie), share it and don’t ruin it with a caustic comment about this or that. Write about a surprisingly positive encounter for what it is. It’s not right to have a situation where your assumptions were turned upside down, proved dead wrong, only to mentally chalk it up as an anomaly. No one here is so naive as to think that there isn’t a definite pattern among certain patient populations, but the exceptions are far more interesting than the rule. Share them.

(Update 6/26/08: The SCOTUS just ruled the DC handgun ban unconstitutional. Believe it or not, I agree with the majority and Scalia’s written opinion that any complete ban that prevents law-abiding citizens from protecting their home is against the spirit of the 2nd amendment. I’m from Texas, after all. Just another example of how none of us are 100% anything politically)

Updates, Bags, and Social Networks

Blog Updates:
I’m happy to report all is well. The blog software is updated, making room for all the “current” plug-ins, themes, etc. and most importantly, the security fixes applied so that I don’t get h4x0r5 hijacking the site to something hideous and embarrassing like an online yarn shop. I’d never live that one down. Regarding the slick black theme: yes, it’s understated, and surprisingly, yes, it’s pretty much done. I downloaded it of course, because I can’t create much of anything, but I can always edit and tweak. (which I need to do because I want my links underlined and my blogroll subcategorized) However, I really like the minimal, clean look. Maybe in a month or two I’ll think to add a graphic here and there, but the day you see a flash ad at the top (for yarn and fabric!) is the day you know for sure I’ve been abducted. Thanks Vijay and TinyShrink MD (heh) for the shout outs.

Bags:
As I wrote on Twitter the other day, I have a serious thing for bags. I am, in fact, completely indistinguishable from a woman shopping for purses with the level of scrutiny that I investigate pockets, seams, zippers and compartments. However, the presence of my Y chromosome does mean that I must depart somewhat from my inner female in that looks and it matching anything else I have are nearly irrelevant. I don’t care if the bag looks like a freak accident that escaped the Coach genetic testing labs–I care about function,form, and feel, ONLY and in that order.

So my brother was here last week, and I saw a bag he had that I don’t recall his having this last Christmas. I asked what it was, and he said “Weren’t you the one that told me about this?” Disgustedly, I gave a look like, “You fool! Do you think I’d forget something like this?!?” as I pawed The Precious.

Here is the object of my desire. It’s different from my brother’s, but our gear needs are different. Yes I know the orange isn’t the most aesthetically pleasing color, but just look at that removable DSLR camera bag attachment. Yes, I know the whole “snake” theme is a bit odd, but that’s some sexy stuff. YeSSSSS!

Obviously, I’m not getting this anytime soon, but my current eBags laptop backback is not doing too well (in fact, it’s nearly unrecognizable from the online pictures). It’s also surprisingly heavy all by itself–something I found recently as I emptied it to have it be managed by Claudia when I was last in the hospital. “Honey, I need this because, like, you know, the next time I might be in the the hospital–what? yes, I know the doctor said all would be fine, but you never know…ok!–I’m just saying, the next time, if I have this, it won’t be as heavy for you when you have to manage it,” just isn’t very convincing. I’ll work on it.

Social Networking:
In my previous life, I was a senior-level IT person/consultant. It should come as no surprise, then, that when faced with a “SIGN UP NOW” email from a relative, friend, or annoying co-worker–it matters not–in order to see their pictures or whatever online with some proprietary service, I normally would hit “delete” without a second thought (and might even be annoyed that thanks to them, they at least have my email address). Why on earth would I want to give away my information to a business that I have nothing to do with who, upon trying to make ends meet, will be like so many others and whore their user data to the highest bidder, maybe even sinking so low as to start putting up yarn ads. (If you got that reference, you’ve read this all the way through and I thank you from the bottom of my ad-less heart)

Maybe it’s the sweltering Texas summer heat, maybe it’s having some burnable time on my hands, but I seem to be trying out new services sites like it’s going out of style. Normally meticulously recorded in SplashID on my Blackberry (encrypted of course), I have yet to keep up with all the usernames/sites I’m registering. It’s like I have Daddy’s credit card and going on a registration/shopping spree and don’t care about amounts or receipts, wadding them up and throwing them on the floor as I search the next target. There’s a ton of redundancy and overlap in these things, and I think I’ve reached the limit of what I’m willing to try. I think with each useful service, there is a “best of breed” product; that’s the one I’ll sign up with.

And what it is with the lack of vowels in these names? Flickr. Stumblr. Feedlr. Tumblr. Mastrbatr. I gotta pull back before some 21-year-old CIO in the Bay Area tweets to his other entrepreneur buddies and with all their collective information figures out the exact position of all the constellations at the time of my birth. On their iPhones.

(Medical stuff–personal and news/commentary–coming in a jiffy, I promise!)

Blog updates

Tonight I plan to upgrade this site to WordPress 2.5.x. I’ll also be applying a new theme, though I’m not 100% sure which one it will be. I can say, however, that it will NOT be a completed task anytime soon. I’m not a web designer and I don’t want to waste time making things purty. I care more about functionality and such and will be adding a few new plugins as well. So, if there are a few glitches y’all notice over the next 24-48h or so, please PLEASE let me know. Letting me know what you think of the new semi-temporary look and feel as well would make me verrry happy.

I may yet continue as a Mexican medical student at another school, so I haven’t given up the domain yet, but it’s time for some serious housecleaning around here. If your blog is not on my sidebar and we’ve commented/emailed in the past, let me know–it’s just on oversight on my part. OK, time for me to start scrubbin’!

Ping

Just a ping (“One ping please, Vasili?”) to let everyone know that I’m clawing my way back into the blogosphere. I just fired up my newsreader and counted the thousands of posts since I last ran it over a month ago. SHOCKING! Most friends had 20-30 posts, and not a small few had quite a few more than that. I am so ashamed.

So, given the above, I’m sorry to admit to my peeps that even though I’d like to, I almost certainly won’t get to read all of your posts. If your magnum opus was much before last week or so, chances are I won’t see it unless you tell me.

As for me, well, I’m doing better in some ways and worse in others, all to be shared soon. I know, you’ve heard that before, but this time, I’m motivated by something coming up in my ongoing personal medical drama in a couple of weeks for which I’d like the site to be current. That aside, I genuinely am motivated to write again for its own sake. I think I had to step away for a bit (part voluntary, part forced) to appreciate what I have here, namely, the friends and associations I’ve made online and the support I’ve received publicly and privately.

Lastly, after having been egged on somewhat by Dr. A. and Vijay, I am trying to get over myself to start audio and/or video blogging. I’m 100% ready to go, except every time I record something, and especially for video, I see it, I shy away and trash it instead of posting it. So why the conflict? Well, put simply, “blogging” in this way is SOOOOO much easier. A long post that is edited, re-edited, etc. can be simply dictated/filmed naturally. Sometimes typing is a chore, and I can’t seem to shut off the “edit” filter with the written word; since we’re not talking Hollywood special effects here, I just don’t feel the need to over-edit for A/V media. So if this seems even remotely interesting to you, please leave me a comment telling me what you think so I can stop second-guessing myself and put it out there once and for all. If tomatoes get thrown my way, I’ll just make a marinara.

P.S. You can also follow me on Twitter (when it’s up–don’t get me started on that…), since of course it’s far easier to update goings-on there.

SurgeXperiences No. 20

In honor of Dr. Sid Schwab’s masterful edition of the surgery blog carnival, SurgeXperiences, I offer this humble introduction:

Dr. Schwab shows a natural attraction
To verse in utmost compaction.
 He’s written a book
 So go take a look
At our Limerick Laureate in action!

This is the first time I participate, so I’m especially honored to be included in such a creative edition!

Grand Rounds 4:31

Blog buddy Dr. Val is hosting this week at her blog, Dr. Val and the Voice of Reason. Go check out the best of the medical blogosphere from this last week.

I will be back shortly. :)

And now, back to our regularly scheduled program

I’m back!! I missed blogging tremendously with so many times thinking in my head, “Oh, I gotta write/share that!” but I made a commitment to let things settle down to a dull roar before I started posting again, not wanting to have this start/stop bad mojo on the blog. Thankfully, I think I’m finally at the point where I can say things are calm enough and look like they’ll remain so, at least as much as I can expect. So much to tell, so much I’m glad is in the past, so much to look forward to–all in good time.

For now, here’s a small list of some general comments to catch you up, in no special order (some of which will be expanded on later):

  • I got some email wondering if my “Hiatus” post indicated I was going to seek psychiatric care or the like. Funny that, because I did actually call around to see what was available. Unfortunately, there isn’t anything available for “crisis counseling” on an outpatient basis for people who need short-term, more focused help but are functional otherwise. Therapists and psychiatrists are backlogged for weeks or months, so “emergencies” here are handled by inpatient programs akin to the state ward where you get to use crayons and clay for art therapy and ice cream snacks are used as rewards for good behavior. Um, no thanks.
  • Instead of mental health care, I got treated to some hard-core health care: 2 hospitalizations with a sum total of 15 days inpatient stay involving multiple scopes, surgery and blood transfusions–oh my! (definitely much more on this later) I’m still on pain meds as I heal, so pardon the grammer and mispellingses for now. :P
  • Shortly after I arrived in TX, I treated myself to a Blackberry Curve 8320 now that I was stateside and my cell contract had long expired, ripe for cheap equipment renewal. No more living in the Mexican data desert! (Actually GDL is totally wired for 3G–it’s just that there, the “3″ means you have to pay 3x as much!) Having mobile email and browser is schweeeeeet.
  • In just the span of a couple of months, my daughter seems to have grown up so much, yet she’ll barely be two next month. It’s awesome seeing her slowly develop every day into her own person. It’s also clear to me that all the trauma we’ve gone through seems totally lost on her–as it should be–as I watch her happy as can be with the simplest of things. I’d go through 100x more just to make sure it stays that way.
  • I still haven’t decided what do call my new domain (since Mexico Medical Student is obviously not applicable anymore). I am tending to pick a generic title that has nothing to do with medical school, just because I want to be prepared for anything, and more to the point, keep using it after medical school. I want to be happy with something long-term and not have yet another migration later.
  • It’s nice to have TiVo actually doing what it’s supposed to do now that it can actually use US programming data. I watch so little TV anyway, but what I do watch, I’m fiercely addicted to. Right now that means Top Chef and Battlestar Galactica, both new seasons recently started. In Mexico, I used to always download and watch episodes in large chunks after-the-fact; now it’s almost torture waiting week by week like everyone else for what’s next.

Well, that’s pretty much enough to get an idea of what’s going on. Other than the medical stuff that will follow, there’s not been much. I do have to make one very important point to close this post, however. A few friends have asked how school search/applications are going, completely because they cared and wanted to know. On the blog, however, I will not be posting anything about any facet of any applications, status updates, prospects, etc. Medical school application is a rigorous and, frankly, competitive endeavor. There are enough lookie-loos from my school who (for reasons also to be written about) are in the same application pool as I, trying to transfer to other programs. I don’t need to divulge what I’m doing for obvious reasons. If anything is shared, it’s pretty much because something is a done deal well after-the-fact. Since my target is August, that means mum’s the word for a good while. I hope this is easily understood. Thanks. :)

Hiatus

Hello…thanks for still checking in! :) It seems odd to have a post entitled “Hiatus” when I haven’t posted in a couple of weeks, but I felt at least y’all deserved to know that it will still be a bit before anything really moves on here. Things have not been settling easily, though. Every significant step forward seems to have at least an equal or greater step backwards. For example, our stuff got through the border–and we saved over $2500 compared to the cheapest quotes we were getting in GDL, all things being said and done. Except things at my parents’ house weren’t working out, so we moved to my father-in-laws. Like I needed any more moving. At least we’re talking the original stuff we had in the cars only–the big stuff went straight into a storage unit until we can figure out what’s going to go on with us.

Which is the point–too much is too unstable to be blogging here about it right now. Either I blog about what’s going on (which part of me would LOVE to do) or I censor myself to the point of losing interest, blogging out of some unspoken forced obligation. The former runs the almost certain consequence of shifting the blog too negative (more than it already has), and I think that’s too high a price to pay. When things calm down (and I thought they would have by about now) and life is more stable, I look forward to writing about many things again, without the seemingly ever-present undertone of doom and gloom.

Speaking of doom and gloom, one of my worst fears has been realized. I promise, that’s what’s not sending me into a non-writing funk, but it’s close. :P

In the meantime, I have to change the name of this site from mexicomedstudent.com to something else, since it clearly no longer applies. Any suggestions you’d want to leave in the Comments section would be greatly appreciated. :)

Until later!

And the winner is…

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